Treasure

Sometimes I don’t understand how human relationships work. Actually what I do not understand are love relationships. How is it possible to have an entire life together with someone for months or years and suddenly completely disappear from each others life’s? Isn’t it too much to take? How can anybody forget so easily about all those hours spent with that special someone? Is it only me that has been feeling under a spell for a relationship that has been over for several months?

I saw him last weekend after three months of not seeing his face, of not hearing his voice, of not touching his hands. It seemed like those ninety days had never gone by, as if life had played a joke on us on and we were just hanging out as lovers in another day of our relationship. How strange was to stare into his eyes and remember they way we loved each other, to remember how intense and passionate we felt day by day. And now, there is no space for anything else on my mind but him and me, of who we were, of who we could still be.

But things are not that easy. Nothing is ever easy. I had so many decisions made during those ninety days; decisions that cannot be taken back. And this will forever break my heart: to know that once again this relationship will not work because of me, as it did not work ninety four days ago.

                                                                  W.L.